I’m not going to lie, 2016 wasn’t great for me. I dealt with anxiety, fear of failure, actual failures, doubt and grief. I felt alone and I felt like giving up. I have been afraid to be honest and to talk about it all. I spent a lot of time feeling bad about myself, my work, my business and my life. There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t wonder if I’m doing the right thing, or how I can put my whole heart into my photography while still being able to help support my family. It’s been a long road, and I’m still on it.
But I am vowing to focus on the positive. Because when I look back through all the photos I’ve taken, I don’t see the failures and the sadness. I see the good times, the smiles and laughter, the joy and the love. The successes.
This year my word is “refresh”. It’s time for me to start fresh. I am ready for change, to grow and get better and be a better human in all parts of my life. I am pretty sure this year is going to bring a lot of changes, ones that scare the crap out of me. But I’m so ready.
New Year’s resolutions aren’t really my thing, but this year I want to set some goals. I want to make some little changes to get me through the year and to stay on track, to help me feel refreshed. It’s so easy to get down and focus on your failures. I’m not going to say that this year will be perfect. I’m not going to set some big goals like “have less stress” or “be happy”. But I am going to try and be a better me.
• When I’m feeling good, take more selfies. And maybe post some of them. So I can look back and see that there were good days.
• Interact more on social media. When I see a photo I like, I’m going to leave a comment instead of just scrolling by. Become a part of the community that inspires me.
• Bring my camera with me to new places. The grocery store, in the car, places I wouldn’t normally take it out.
• Put my phone down. Be present for my girls.
• Try new things. I’ve been wanting to try freelensing. Look at things from new perspectives, maybe climb a tree.
• Put myself out there. Submit photos for features and awards, or just because I believe in my work.
Before I jump into 2017, I have to say goodbye to 2016. It may not have been the best year, but I have some pretty great memories from it.