Until now I haven’t posted much personal stuff on my blog. It’s been mainly a place for client session photos. But I’ve decided to change that. In following one of my inspirations, Sarah Cornish of My Four Hens Photography, I realized that I love lifestyle photography. I love the way she captures everyday moments with such emotion and beauty, and I want to do more of that.
Of course, lifestyle photography is not easy. When you are a perfectionist like me, it’s hard to look past the messy house and less-than-perfect light. But I’m am going to try to do it and this blog is going to keep me accountable (I hope).
The other thing that Sarah inspired me to do is write letters to my daughter. She is part of a group that writes letters to their children regularly, and I love her reason for doing it; to leave a legacy for her kids, and for them to be able to read their story through her words (and photos). I am in love with this idea. I have loved writing for as long as I can remember since I was a kid writing rhyming poetry and gushing about my latest crush in my diary. But since I became a photographer I have kind of abandoned writing.
So, I am going to start writing letters to my daughter, Sofia. I will try to do it regularly, but I have a feeling it will happen mostly when the inspiration comes from our everyday life. I don’t want there to be any real rules, I just want to write what feels right and good to me. And of course, I will include photos of our life too. I’m excited to start something new, for me and for her and I hope you will come back to see it.
This is the first of what I’m hoping many letters I am going to write to you. I hope that one day my words will help you to know how proud I am of you and how much I love you. In the nearly three short years of your life, you have changed me. I never could have imagined what being a mother would feel like. And I wouldn’t change a thing.
But don’t worry, my letters won’t just be about me or my feelings. I want to tell you all about the little things, the things you won’t remember when you’re older. Sometimes I will tell you about sad times because that’s part of life. But mostly I will write about funny moments, silly things we do, happy times that I want to remember too. I know you are going to grow up too fast, so if I can put these things in words, I can hold onto them a bit longer.
So here goes. This past week we’ve spent a lot more time together than usual (not a bad thing, I promise!) Nana and Poppy Blake are both gone away and I’ve been off work. We’ve spent a lot of time in our PJs, playing games on the iPad and watching cartoons. Sometimes I feel bad because you watch so much tv. Maybe we should be doing more crafts or playing together. So one afternoon this week, I decided to turn off the tv and we went upstairs, me with my camera and you with my old Pentax. I really don’t care if you love taking photos as much as me, but when you picked up that camera and put it up to your eyes and told me to say “cheese” of course I felt proud. We had so much fun taking pictures of each other, jumping on the bed, chasing each other around the house and having tickle fights.
I’m sure as you get older you will get frustrated with me always having a camera in your face, trying to get that perfect shot (oh, who am I kidding, you already do!) But I just can’t help myself! You climbed up on your toy box, which sits underneath your window, and looked up at me with that huge grin and when I got the shot I felt giddy inside. Then you proceeded to pose and make silly faces at me, and I was in my glee. It doesn’t happen often, but when it does it’s pretty special to me. Now I have these photos from our fun afternoon that I can look at when I need to smile.
Today is Saturday and it’s noon and we are still in our PJs. You’re over at the coffee table eating a bowl of veggies and watching Strawberry Shortcake. I called out to you, just to say hi, and I love that you always say “hi” back with a smile. You have such a wonderfully silly personality, chasing the dog around the room, dancing and singing even when there’s no music, blowing raspberries and laughing your head off. I hope that never changes.
Ok, I’m done for today. I could go on and on, but I think I would rather go play with you right now. I love you so much, baby girl, I hope you know that.