Almost halfway there! :D Definitely feeling pregnant these days and really looking it too ha ha.
I’ve been feeling great overall, less tired and less sick (yippy!). But happily, I’ve been feeling more little kicks and pokes every day. It’s really starting to sink in that this baby is for real.
Next week I have my 20-week ultrasound, and we are pretty sure we want to find out what we are having. As much as I loved that moment after the long, hard hours of labour, hearing “it’s a girl!”, this time we just feel like it would help us prepare. It’s one of those things that you just feel is right for you at that time, even though it’s hard to explain why.
I’ve realized recently that I haven’t really connected with this baby. And I know it has a lot to do with the miscarriage because I am afraid if I connect and really start bonding with this baby I could get hurt. It’s something I’ve been working on, but it isn’t easy. I never want to forget that I went through that, but I also don’t want it to ruin the experience with this little one. I know that only when I hold my baby in my arms will I finally be able to relax, but until then I am working hard to make a connection. This blog is a big help, as is my amazing husband and sweet daughter.
I’m taking it one day at a time, and today I’m celebrating 19 weeks!