“I really struggled with this theme. There are so many different definitions and interpretations of the word weakness and I couldn’t help but think about the word’s negative sides, and that can be hard to express and very personal. I don’t get personal very often, and it’s hard to open up and make it about myself. I especially don’t take self-portraits. But it’s all I could think about.
I am not always the strong person I try to appear on the outside. Sometimes I feel a weight on my shoulders. I do all the things I’m supposed to do, but at the end of the day, I feel tired and weak. I feel aching in my neck and back that never really go away.
We all have weaknesses, we all feel weak sometimes. But maybe being able to push through and keep going, look at the positive side of things and be grateful for the life we’re living really makes us strong.”
Usually my Project 52 image in a selection from a series taken from my everyday life. I put a lot of thought into this one because I was a bit afraid to go this personal with it. But then I told myself that really that’s the whole point of this project. It’s not to impress other people, it is a way for me to express myself, to step out of the box and push the boundaries, and to document my life as it is in that week.
Well, this week I was struggling. There have been so many ups and downs. Sometimes the smallest thing affects me and brings me down. And sometimes the tiniest thing can lift me up. Motherhood can be lonely, as much as you love it. I spend a lot of time wondering if I’m doing it right, feeling guilt for one reason or another and wishing that I had more close friends to lean on in hard times.
The best I can say is that admitting my weaknesses makes me feel a bit stronger. Photography is an outlet for me to do that, and this is my story.